It’s been a long while just under a year since I’ve blogged on my scottishsiren blog. I’ve been happy to post pics on tumblr and various other places. But not here, I’ve just taken a break as there were other more important personal things that needed to be taken care of.
Taken care of… we all need that, most importantly being responsible for ourselves and taking good care of our own emotions and well-being.
I had a bit of an epiphany last night and trust me it was a long time coming.. Sometimes you just don’t see your own stuff even when it’s slapping you in the face.. Oh the joys of being aware and unaware!
I have a strong work ethic and when things aren’t working I tend to look at what’s going on inside rather than focusing on the what’s happening or not in the outer world. The answers are always within reach if you go inside yourself and listen. What I’ve learnt and is simple. Let it Be
Not too profound though it is actually much more than you first think.
Sitting here with Paddington Bear at Paddington Station in London I’ve always had a fascination for trains and stations. My favourite station is Paddington. I love the architecture, the expanse of the place and the ambient yet buzzy vibe the place has.
I love watching all the people, busily going from A to B, stopping along the way for a coffee and a bite to eat.I’ve spent the last four days in London, sitting in cafes just relaxing the afternoons away drinking lots of coffee (I love soya cappuccinos), eating vegan cupcakes, wandering around, going to galleries, on an Access Consciousness bars course – (see this post about that) and generally having a little holiday.
Busy, Jeez thought I’d never stop!
It’s great when things take off and move; more on why this happened so quickly later…
It’s good to get your feet under and really sort things out
I’ve always been an initiator, I like moving things along and I follow through sometimes it takes a while (lots of patience, faith and being a tad tenacious is important here) Though of late the moving part I don’t really need to do, which in my book is fab as it means a lot less effort on my part. How does it get any better than that? What else is possible?
I love it when things fall into place all by themselves and just seem to work out. One of my targets this year is getting fitter, never been really unfit, just wanted to be more toned and curvy; that’s been happening without me really having a proper fitness plan in place. This is where my new dress comes in… I love dresses, not really OTT flowery girly ones, just hourglass friendly shaped ones that make me feel like a million pounds. I haven’t bought any clothes for a while and I enjoyed buying my new dress; I’m not a huge shopping excursion fan, I prefer buying CD’s and wandering around market stalls and smaller vintage community shops/areas like Brick Lane & Portobello Road Market in London.
John Lennon and Yoko Ono by Annie Leibovitz
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Now I love this photograph, a lot of people see John Lennon as being the vulnerable one here, (interpretation is so subjective, that’s why everyone has a different take on it) I see Yoko as more vulnerable than John (she looks encompassed and held in rapture by him), I see him as being totally open and embracing everything about her in her entirety, with no judgement; now that’s what I call unconditional love.
Now that is what has brought me to where I am, it’s not a hocus pocus type of love that is unobtainable it’s a state of grace, acceptance and love on a deep level, that just is. It’s not easy to explain with words I just feel it and I’m so happy I can access those feelings a lot.