Sometimes those damn curve balls drive you crazy, you feel there are no answers to anything, hopelessness, fear, so I asked the question ( I’m all about asking the question as it works. It’s been bothering me a lot, about what to do…. Here is the answer
This photo was taken in a taxi on the way to work this morning, not being a morning person I watched the bus zoom past me… ooops… oh well. I’ve gone past that a million times and never seen it – funny how things pop up when you need them the most. Love… Jeez I wasn’t expecting that; as being in judgement well it was so much safer – blame, anxiety, worry, hey isn’t that much more fun!
Where are You?
PAC (Peace, Acceptance and Courageousness)
A G F L A P
I love the pac man way of looking at this… CAP (Courageousness, Acceptance and Peace) the other way is PAC, as that is where you start from.. (when you are hootless) as you start in peace and we all want to be back there.
High above, in the clouds on my way to Edinburgh ~ 26th June 2010
I should really be fast asleep, listening to my meditation cd on my Squeezebox, drifting into la-la land, but I’m here getting inspiration for a new blog post instead… the idea for this post came about by having a good day, it’s been a little while since I’ve felt one of those really well and today was it
It’s starting to come back the feelings of grace and gratitude within me, which is nice.
They are such lovely feelings, well really states of beingness as that’s where you are with grace and gratitude they are like sisters who are just close and you know that they get on like a house on fire. The appreciation of life I have is phenomenal and it helps me deal with all the stuff that crops up in my life. I know on a deep level that everything has an order even the chaos is an illusion and I do my best to hold steadfast and see the grace in all situations.
Ahhh Epiphanies great things they are, when the “baseball bat of Life” finally hits you and the jigsaw pieces actually fit.
I was listening to Get it on by Grinderman this morning – Friday 28th May, just an ordinary day, nothing special as I was getting ready for work and then it suddenly hit me
It’s so bloody obvious and I already had the knowledge – I had used it before and had forgotten about it, how we all get so distracted by the drama of life ( I just needed reminding again, it’s great when you are clear and just know what the next step is)
Dig, Dig, Dig
Moon in Pisces
Yvaine from the film Stardust
Success is getting what you want. Happiness is wanting what you get. Dale Carnegie
There is nothing much wrong with my life, I’m happy enough, got food on the table, roof over my head, a steady job and I have exciting projects on the go with my website, this blog, I get on great with my kids, family and overall nothing is really stressing me out… then I slammed my foot into a door and broke my little toe – clumsy girly (I don’t have any gory pics)
But there’s a restlessness, a sadness and a deep loss of connection, to whom/what or how I don’t really know; so I’m going to have to dig a bit deeper, to find out what the hell is going on Continue reading
I had a terrible nights sleep last night, Yep I felt like I was in that vortex ….I remember 5 and 6 am, worrying about work, people I love, life, my car, stupid stuff … Being awake in the dead of night with a couple of foxes for company, staring out the window, looking at the waxing moon. I woke up knackered (after 2 hours sleep) yet full of ideas for this post and I’m sitting her writing this with wet hair as I needed a bath to wake me up as I was such a zombie.
Ideas about death, love, waiting, patience, hurt, loss all the things we just don’t want to deal with ….a bit morbid maybe it’s the lack off sleep my brain is wired differently today but out it must come.
The love of Reiki
You know when a friend has her hair done or some nice new makeup or just looks fresh-faced and happy, well a friend was just like that she looked radiant, so my curiosity was piqued to say the least, I asked her what it was she had done, she told me she had just learnt Reiki.
So I asked her about it, it’s interesting as I have been able to feel energy since I was a teenager, but kind of dismissed it as didn’t know what to do with it. I asked at the local spiritual church but was told categorically to come back in 6 months, so I thought this isn’t the way forward. So I went to a talk with Chris Parkes a Reiki Teacher whom my friend had just done his reiki course and while I was having some reiki saw myself sending it to my mother (which is a reiki 2 level course, that I hadn’t done yet!) So I thought I’d better look into this and I did, it felt right to do the Reiki 1 Class with Chris and I’ve never looked back since.
Reiki is more about self-development for me than about giving and receiving the energy, that’s important too as so much love, healing and peace can be given and received by a reiki treatment, it’s a wonderful gentle way of giving yourself or another some much-needed love, support and TLC.
Reiki for me transcends lots of spiritual boundaries, it has opened me up and helped me let go, love and detach from situations and people fo the last 13 years. It helped me deal with some very difficult issues and to be supported by the energy is wonderful and very comforting.
Lillies in my Kitchen ~ April 2010
I love lillies always have, maybe it’s the fragrance that hangs around my house for days, I can smell the aroma the minute I walk through the front door, it’s very welcoming.
Today has been rather lovely, I spent a lot of it under a tree reading a biography on Rimbaud by Graham Robb in the sunshine, quietly enjoying the first real stirrings of Spring.
I also love riding my lovely bike ( a Marin Point Reyes) as to get to this lovely secluded spot away from noise and people I needed to ride there, so I gathered up the essentials (a book, a picnic of sandwiches (which funnily enough even had cucumbers in it… how delightfully British of me…) , juice, yogurt and ginger cake)
300zx Twin Turbo Manual
I see my zed like a big gallant horse and a spaceship all rolled into one
Ok I’m now about 6 years old and loving it!
Life has enough to trip you up, test you and drive you nuts, there ain’t nothing wrong with focusing on the postive and the fun stuff.
I’m all for world peace, fighting injustice and hypocrisy – who in their right mind wouldn’t be?
There is also time for good things – the stuff that makes us chuckle and grin from ear to ear, the people who make our hearts flutter and the peace we all have within us to help make a difference to the world
Happiness is utterly crucial here, I just know what doesn’t serve me …
Life is about living; being who you are and staying true to yourself..always
Even when it means you have to put “your hoof” down… (Taurus)
Feeling good is paramount, moping doesn’t solve anything; it just takes longer to get out of the shit! Continue reading