Stop swimming upstream, you are not a salmon

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It’s been a long while just under a year since I’ve blogged on my scottishsiren blog. I’ve been happy to post pics on tumblr and various other places. But not here, I’ve just taken a break as there were other more important personal things that needed to be taken care of.

Taken care of… we all need that, most importantly being responsible for ourselves and taking good care of our own emotions and well-being.

I had a bit of an epiphany last night and trust me it was a long time coming.. Sometimes you just don’t see your own stuff even when it’s slapping you in the face.. Oh the joys of being aware and unaware!

I have a strong work ethic and when things aren’t working I tend to look at what’s going on inside rather than focusing on the what’s happening or not in the outer world. The answers are always within reach if you go inside yourself and listen. What I’ve learnt and is simple. Let it Be
Not too profound though it is actually much more than you first think.

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Vulnerability

John Lennon and Yoko Ono by Annie Leibovitz
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Now I love this photograph, a lot of people see John Lennon as being the vulnerable one here, (interpretation is so subjective, that’s why everyone has a different take on it) I see Yoko as more vulnerable than John (she looks encompassed and held in rapture by him), I see him as being totally open and embracing everything about her in her entirety, with no judgement; now that’s what I call unconditional love.

Now that is what has brought me to where I am, it’s not a hocus pocus type of love that is unobtainable it’s a state of grace, acceptance and love on a deep level, that just is. It’s not easy to explain with words I just feel it and I’m so happy I can access those feelings a lot.

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In My Garden Sitting With Contentment

My Garden  ~ June 20th 2010

I’m sitting in my garden at my outdoor table and chairs, smelling my honeysuckle bush in blossom writing this on the laptop, I love my wireless router… 😀

June is a lovely time in my garden, I’m not the best gardener in the world, but in June my garden seems to get itself together and look fabulous with very little effort from me, my dad helped me quite a few years ago to plant some shrubs and bushes I’ve added a few more over the years and now it has kind of grown into itself. (Though I’d love a man to come round and mow the lawn on regular basis)

I’m sat here barefoot with my feet in the grass, (I’ve got a nice canopy umbrella as I wouldn’t be able to see what I’m typing if I didn’t.) I’m sat here being so hardcore drinking milk (soya)

I’ve managed to get my squeezebox boom from the kitchen outside enough so I can hear it very well (though it’s in the shade as don’t want that overheating) I can change the music as I have my duet remote control. I’m listening  to a shuffle playlist of P J Harvey I’ve already covered my love for her here.

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Mirror, Mirror

Ahhh Epiphanies great things they are, when the “baseball bat of Life” finally hits you and the jigsaw pieces actually fit.

I was listening to  Get it on by Grinderman this morning – Friday 28th May, just an ordinary day, nothing special as I was getting ready for work and then it suddenly hit me
It’s so bloody obvious and I already had the knowledge – I had used it before and had forgotten about it, how we all get so distracted by the drama of life ( I just needed reminding again, it’s great when you are clear and just know what the next step is)

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